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hahaha, If I had a dime for everytime i picked up a recording of myself and thought.....well I suck.

And yes, the first recital is usually not as god as you can play, perofrming is a skill that needs to be practiced just like anything else we do on our instruments.

Performing is a skill that requires practice and perfection. As they say, it is not acceptable to get it right once, you need to be able to do it on your worst day after your dog died on a borrowed horn in the wrong key against an uncollaborative pianist who is sight reading with borrowed glasses. You owe it to the audience that showed up to hear YOU.

That's what recital requirements are for, and do it every chance you get, and then make more opportunities. Learn to love it, because that is, in no small part, what you've set out to make your life at.

Another thing about performing at a higher level is RECOVERY. Mistakes are inevitable. (not that they should be liked, but they are) How we respond to those mistakes makes or breaks us. Young or immature performers tend to let their mistakes break them down mentally and lead to more mistakes.

Things happen in a live performance that don't in practice/rehearsal sessions, that's what makes them such a great learning tool. Anyone can play brilliantly in the safety of their own home.

Go back and enjoy some more.

CB

This was what my teacher was getting at years ago when he told me one day, "On a good day you can play with the big boys, but on a bad day you still stink. You need to work and practice to the point that, on a day where your house has burned down, your wife left you, your dog died, you're sick and your car quit running, no one could tell it by how you played. That is the true mark of a professional."

That lesson meant more to me than any other that I've had.

th big question here is - why did you get tired? Have you never played your whole recital at full volume in the practice room? Have you not practiced the whole recital a dozen times in a row to make sure that doing it once on stage would be a walk in the park?

I think that under preparation was your biggest enemy, not fatigue. If you have done all that in the practice room, then what changed? These are the things you need to examine to see where it all came apart.

Just an observation from a novice.
Roger

windshieldbug wrote: after your dog died

If your dog dies, I'd forgive a mistake or two.

Bove wrote:

windshieldbug wrote: after your dog died

If your dog dies, I'd forgive a mistake or two.

What if the dog just gets very sick, but recovers?