Ken Herrick wrote:So, Chuck, are you still practicing Mahler 1 in all keys???
Never did hear how that went ten or so years ago.
Wow, a blast from the past. This was during a particularly bad run of my Focal Dystonia. I had never played the piece and crashed on it in a couple of rehearsals. I did, indeed, play it every key and range I could find. The solution for me was to play it up and octave 10 times in a row (on an F mind you). When I picked up the horn to play it on the dress rehearsal and final concert, I set that embouchure and did, what I thought, was a good job. Oddly enough when I was working at KCNV the Great John Clare programmed that recording on a Sunday morning as a sort of "hometown hero's" airing. I was nicely surprised at the result. Has it been played better, absolutely. It was a small victory for me. They mean more than the winning an epic battle it seems.
I have chronicled my descent into the hell of FD here a while back. Besides the physical realities of not being able to do with my body what my mind was singing, the psychological toll was far, FAR worse. It is a horrific experience when you pick up a horn that was NEVER a problem to play and not knowing if what was going to come out would be a sound or a disaster.
I can honestly say I was never the best tuba player on the planet, not even close, but I loved the instrument and did my best to make sure I respected all the music I was honored to be allowed to play. The tuba was my life, but FD brought this one salient thought into sharp focus: we are NOT what we do, we do because of who we are. Many years of reflection on that one thought have made me a better person, IMHO. I believe I have found my true calling in the education of young people. Whether it conducting a top notch Youth orchestra, setting up a beginning cello player, or fixing the embouchure of a freshman clarinet player, being able to pass along the passion and respect for music is a blessing I never saw coming. As music saved me when I was a teenager, I try to help students realize that it may save them from a life of mediocrity.
Sorry for the long post. I guess you have been updated. Thanks for memory jog Ken.
Chuck"blessed "Jackson